Idk it bothers me so deeply when black women won’t fuck with black men only out of spite and assumption of how they were raised

Like making an active choice to not like black men. Be having whole feelings for a nigga but he’s black so…..that’ll never happen???

Usually there’s a “so there’s this girl” that I can speak about with my friends

None, there’s no one there this time. It’s been months

I feel like I’m waiting for human affection to come in the mail but the package keeps getting delayed so I just Gotta sit here and wait

Or maybe this wait is a necessary change in my life for the better

Either way it fucking sucks

When in a position of creating art, especially music, trust your childhood instincts that u still feel 100%. Even if u don’t feel these instincts completely, remember the feeling of these instincts. What was running though your mind the first time you smelled poop? What do u think you were like? What silly memories do u have with your young friends and why do u remember them? When you’re creating, you have to force the freshness of a sensation into the texture of the desired piece. Sometimes the melody, the foreground, the lighting makes you think about something completely random, or at least random to an onlooker. But it means something to you, maybe miniscule, but it means something.  Never be scared to make a statement of that something.